Yes…I know…it’s been awhile since I’ve posted. It’s hard to post about slipcover’s and home decor when you feel like your life is falling apart at the seams. It has been one of the hardest year’s of my life. It’s still working itself out…but I feel more positive about it. I truly believe in the mid-life crisis. I’m 44. My children are much more independent and don’t need me as much as they did. It’s a shedding of the toddler mom and learning how to become the pre-teen / teen mom. It’s a shedding of the 20 something newly wed and learning how to be the 44 year old wife. It’s hard. I’m not going into full detail about what’s gone on except that we’re all working through it. It’s starting to come out better on the other side. I read this article from Psychology Today entitled “What a female Mid-Life crisis looks like,” This excerpt explained exactly how I was feeling:
“Above all, don’t let people tell you that you have no right to be unhappy with your life. It is okay to lose your equilibrium when others think your life should be smooth sailing. It is okay to question your life’s purpose. It’s okay to say, “I don’t know who I am.” It is better to ask the questions and seek the answers than to live a numb life.Sometimes you have to lose yourself to find yourself. Some call this a mid-life crisis; I call it the Heroine’s Journey.”
I just thought if one more person told me “you have a good life.” “why can’t you be grateful?” I thought I might hit them in the face with a chair. So…I haven’t arrived, but that’s OK. It is real and if you’re going through it, you are not crazy. Be your own Heroine.